How am I four months postpartum? How is my little man four months old? It really felt like the first two months took a long time (maybe that was sleep deprivation) but months three and four have just flown. And my gosh, is this kid getting big! I guess because I see him every day and myself every day (in the mirror) I don’t notice changes in us as much. But it’s the little things like putting on an old pair of pants and they are saggy or him not being able to straighten his legs in a 3 month sleeper that remind me we are both growing, changing and living life.

I truly can’t imagine life without this little boy. I’ve said it with each one of my girls that our family has felt complete with them but since his arrival it just feels like this is where we are supposed to be. Three beautiful children, two girls and one boy. Two bigger sisters to watch over and care for and love him and a little brother for the girls that will always want to tag along or make their lives hell (haha).

I still will say that my postpartum recovery post-Caleb has been my best to date. I feel the best and as far as weight goes I’m the lightest I’ve been since getting pregnant with Hannah. I still have about 30 lbs to get off but I’m taking my time with him and doing the best that I can. My cesarean scar looks no different now after three babies than it did after having one, which I’m very grateful for. I’m doing small amounts of exercise here and there (i.e. 30 Day Fitness Challenge – Ab & Squat) and trying to eat better and smaller portions. I am thinking about trying this 40 Day Reset. It seems a little intense but I think my body might need a total reset after taking 4 years of abuse with pregnancies and bad eating. I’ll keep you updated on if I’m going to do that or not.

We’ve had a lot more snow this year than in the past two so I’ve been stuck inside more with all the kids. I’m still getting out for our mom groups and thankfully every Thursday my MIL is watching the kids so I can accomplish tasks like Target and grocery store runs. So as far as my postpartum depression and anxiety that’s been in check for the most part (no major breakdowns yet!) but cabin fever, that’s another story (haha!). As far as bodily functions everything is running smoothly. Periods are still kind of funky but I figured that will take a while for it to work out. Thankfully, I haven’t had any issues with super heavy or painful periods. That was definitely a rumor/wives tale I heard about after being sterilized.

Caleb is doing amazing. He’s growing (and eating) constantly! Again, it’s hard to believe he’s four months old but whether I want it to happen or not, he will get bigger and older with each passing day. We went to the pediatrician today and he’s a big boy! Here’s some updates on his growth:

	Birth	1 Week Old	1 Month Old	2 Months Old	4 Months Old
Weight	6 lbs 13 oz	7 lbs 1 oz	8 lbs 13 oz	11 lbs 6 oz	15 lbs 7 oz
Length	21 inches *nurses messed up*	19 ½ inches	20 ½ inches	23 inches	26 inches
Head Circ.	16 inches	16 inches	16 ¼ inches	16 ½ inches	17 1/2 inches

It’s funny how different the numbers are and how drastically they jump in the months section. As I put pictures of his first four months next to each other I also see him changing. His face is plumper (he’s getting rolls, eeeek!), his eyes are more open, his smiles are bigger and best of all his vocals are louder. I love hearing him coo and giggle, especially when he’s playing with Hannah. She really has become a great big sister to him and very nurturing. She loves to be next to him on his play mat and talk to him. Savannah loves Caleb, but she just loves him in a very different way. Savannah has been more of my “independent” child, she can play by herself for a long time before needing too much attention or monitoring. She really only loves on Caleb when I wake him up in the morning, am feeding him or he’s sitting next to me on the couch. But when Savannah does love on Caleb it’s just about the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. I swear she truly believes his name is Mr. Caleb because that’s all she will call him. Caleb loves his Mamaroo but only for specific periods of time. It can be 5 minutes or 45 minutes, honestly he’s most happy being snuggled and held. Such a momma’s boy!

Our next pediatrician appointment will be at 6 months but I’m sure I’ll do an update on us before then. Sorry for the lack of posts but our internet went out with some ice storms because the ground was such a mess it’s still not fixed with the cables. Hoping after this last batch of storms they will get it fixed and I can be back to posting in all my glory!