I'm About To Have A Three Year Old? WTF?6/30/2014
Is this reality? I mean no shit, I'm really about to have a three year old? Yes, let's all *gasp* that I said shit on my blog haha but really it's becoming more and more unreal and real at the same time to me that Hannah is about to be 3! I can't lie, I'm tearing up writing this.
I don't think anyone, dad's included; can ever understand what it's like for a mother to watch her child grow. It's amazing and wonderful and so damn scary at the same time. Needless to say I just turned 30 so it's hard to believe that I was 27 when I had her. WTF? I've had three amazingly, wonderful, laugh-filled, teary nights with this precious little girl but where did they go? I remember her 1st birthday, 2nd birthday and all the days in between but it feels like I've just blinked my eyes and she's as my friends have dubbed it "three-anger" (like teenager).
Each day more words form sentences, more opinions are stated, more personality comes out and it's just too much to bare some days. My mom sent me this for my birthday and it seems so fitting, even at her young age:
I see you and I do not see the passage of time.
I see my little girl playing dress-up, running through the yard, playing on a swing.
I try to respect the fact that you are mature now and that the decisions you make are your own. But you must understand that to me you will always be my little girl.
I may not be able to carry you in my arms anymore, but I will ALWAYS carry you in my heart.
This is so beyond true. Okay, I'm not tearing up anymore I'm full blown sobbing...I'll blame my pregnancy hormones on that. On the positive, I'm pretty sure I've created (with the help of her dad) an amazing human being. Hannah is so full of life and love, laughs and smiles. While we have our rough mother-daughter days where we disagree and argue; which seem more and more these days, I couldn't ask for a better little girl to call my own. I look at her and I see the best combination of my husband and me.
I'm pretty damn lucky to have this almost three year old every single day...but until July 19th she will stay just that. An ALMOST three year old. So I will spend the next threeish weeks loving, kissing, fighting with and adoring this awesome two year, eleven month, one week and some odd hour and minute baby girl!