I have a passionate distain for Huggies that goes back almost four years when I started using diapers with my eldest. I had been told Papers Swadders were the best but you never know as a mom until you try it. I used Pampers Swaddlers exclusively with Hannah through her entire life, the same with Savannah, until recently. 

It’s in human nature to be jealous. We always want more. Worse, we always want what we don’t have or what we see others with. We see this develop very early in children, “I don’t want that toy, I want what Joey has” and so on. Truth is, we should just be happy with what we have. I find myself lately not being jealous of anyone but my husband. I know, weird but true. There are some things I’m jealous of and shouldn’t be, but I am. But here are some of the new ways I’m trying to channel that.

How am I four months postpartum? How is my little man four months old? It really felt like the first two months took a long time (maybe that was sleep deprivation) but months three and four have just flown. And my gosh, is this kid getting big! I guess because I see him every day and myself every day (in the mirror) I don’t notice changes in us as much. But it’s the little things like putting on an old pair of pants and they are saggy or him not being able to straighten his legs in a 3 month sleeper that remind me we are both growing, changing and living life.

I feel like I’ve come full circle with my children. Not necessarily in the way that you might think though. I’ve mentioned before in previous posts that when I was about 19 I was in an unhealthy relationship that lead to an unplanned pregnancy. I decided at a young age and in that unhealthy relationship that it was not the best time in my life to have or raise a child. Not with my partner, not without proper support. Everyone makes these decisions differently but for me, in that moment of time, I made the correct choice for myself, my now ex and that baby.